here's to optimism!

i must say that this life that i have been leading lately is shaping me into the person that i am meant to be. as i sit here, listening to a benny benassi track, i think about my life lately. its been non-stop, something i have always loved. no time to sleep, eat, or remember to breathe. just taking life as it comes. taking it all in, day by day.
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the other afternoon, kaitlyn and i went to stinson beach. there is real beauty there. the clean air surrounds you with breezes that make you want to sit next to a bonfire and roast marshmellows while listening to the waves crash on the rocks. i kid you not, this place is breath taking. i took a few pictures to capture the beauty, but the camera can harldy do this place justice. the green is so green, the sand was so soft. and the way the clouds surrounded and covered the sun, made the water look so much more calmer than how it really was.
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as kaitlyn and i were walking onto the beach from the parking lot, we saw some red, heart-shaped balloons in some sort of figure.. with different kinds of flowers weaved inside and out. as i looked at it, i thought to myself that i would love to have that someday. someone that would get up at 6 am to set something up like that, just to see me smile.
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throughout our time of being there, there were couples and more couples.. walking down the beach, holding hands and being genuinely happy. for the people that know me pretty well, they know that i love to watch and analyze people as they go about their ways of life. so kaitlyn and i sat on a washed out log and watched as people stopped and stared at the balloon display and walked passed us hand in hand. as i was watching the people and keeping a steady eye on the waves, i thought, "everyone who is here, looks completely satisfied with life. i think the whole human population needs to come here, so they can see real beauty."
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to be blunt, to say the least.. this blog was not meant to be about stinson beach. this blog started out to be something like this: i love my life, its so great. i am hardly ever home. i have the best friends that a girl could wish for... blahblahblah. i have noticed a difference in the way that i look at things lately. i tend to see more beauty than ugliness. i look for the good, inside of the bad.

happiness comes in the form of many things. and for me, stinson beach is one of my favorite forms. of course, this life isn't all sunny afternoons on the beach... theres the hard times, but i'd like to treasure the happiness and the memories it creates. in the past couple of months, i have grown so much more stonger (mentally) and can handle more than i thought possible. so here's to optimism and living life to the fullest!
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"I dreamed impossible dreams. And the dreams turned out beyond anything I could possibly imagine. You know, from my point of view, I'm the luckiest cat on the planet."
-Hugh Hefner